What’s your passion? I don’t have one…and that is okay.

I belong to a summer small group of bloggers. We share, support each other, and provide tips and feedback. Each week the moderator provides us with a theme or topic to write about. This week one of the choices was passion.

red is a passionate color

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It would have been easy for me to skip this week. Choosing to write about what I wanted and sharing and old post that could be thought of as passion.

Instead I thought about what my passion was.

And I came to the sad reality that I don’t have a passion.

I don’t have something that I am so completely dedicated to that I would sacrifice nearly everything else to see it become complete.

The closest thing you could get to my passion would be raising my girls. I want to see them grow into mature, confident women and I sacrifice a lot to make sure they have the best childhood possible. But raising them doesn’t feel like a passion, it is simply part of who I am.

I don’t have one social cause that I am dedicated to. Yes, there are some very worthy causes out there, worthy of support. I don’t feel called to become a spokesperson for them.

I don’t have a dream job that I want to do some day. I don’t lay awake at night feeling pulled one way or another, feeling like I should be doing more in my life to make the world better.

I don’t have a hobby that I dedicate myself to. I like playing online games, I like taking surveys, I like doing this blog. If all that went away, I would miss them for a while but I wouldn’t have a gaping hole in my chest.

I don’t have anything I’m passionate about.

I realized this week that is it okay.

I’ve been passionate about things before. I’ve been willing to sacrifice and see goals complete. I’ve campaigned and gotten friends to help me with things.

I used to crochet. I loved to make blankets and all kinds of other projects. I would spend hours a day working on this gift or that. I dreamed of selling my craft and sharing it with others. I collected patterns and yarn, learning more every day. I made purses, hats, jackets, dresses, toys, blankets, etc. When the arthritis flared up and I had to quit, I missed it. I felt lost and like I had nothing to do.

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My passion had been taken away from me.

Over the years I found things to fill my time but never felt so passionate or driven again.

A few months ago I decided to try to crochet again. I made an upcycled T-shirt rag rug. I had so much fun. I spent 5 hours one Sunday afternoon cutting up shirts, making yarn, and then creating a bath mat. I was thrilled. The dreams came back. I had figured out a way to crochet again.

And then I woke up the next morning, barely able to use my hands. It was like the wound had been torn open again. I knew I couldn’t crochet any more. I had to give up the dream for good.

It is hard giving up your passion. I still have a ball of T-Shirt yarn sitting on the floor beside my desk. I want to put it to good use, but I know my body simply cannot.

So I’m lost again, without a passion. Living each day as the next, in a rut, without much change or difference.

And that is okay.

My life this year is centered around the word “whatever”. I find it very comforting that whatever applies to so many different angles in my life. It applies here too.

Society tells us to find a passion and live it, and that is the key to happiness.

I don’t believe it is. I think a key to happiness is being content.

It is taking a step back, looking at the whole picture and saying this is fine.

It is being okay with not having a passion or being driven toward one direction.

It is being content in the whatever, whether you’re passionate about it or not.

 

~Crystal
This post was shared on What Joy is Mine Monday’s Musings weekly linkup party.

 

 

 

Continuing on my journey of contentment:

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  • My roof is done! I am so happy to see this first project complete.
  • The girls and I are loving summer. We are enjoying lazy days without school and too many commitments.

 

 

Every year I pick one word to focus on instead of making New Year’s Resolutions. This year my word ‘whatever’ has helped me through some very tough times. It gives me something to focus on when I lose sight of everything else. I highly recommend reading the book “My One Word”. It clarifies the journey and has helped me through this process. The best part is that you can start any time!

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10 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Heather
    Jun 18, 2014 @ 07:59:36

    Passion, I feel like there are so many things that I am passionate about, I’m not sure I could focus on one thing. I think it is definitely ok to not have a passion. We are constantly growing and evolving as individuals so our needs and our passions change. Here’s to finding the next thing that you want to spend your time on!

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    • Crystal
      Jun 24, 2014 @ 10:08:04

      I have lots of things to spend my time on Heather, just nothing I’m fully passionate about. Possibly again some day, until then I will just keep on living.

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  2. Amy
    Jun 22, 2014 @ 07:34:30

    My husband’s passion of triathlons was taken away due to health issues, too. His sports medicine doctor suspects arthritis, so he has an appt. with a rheumatologist in July. Contentment is so hard in these circumstances, but I 100% agree that is the key. Blessings to you in your efforts. My heart is with you.

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    • Crystal
      Jun 24, 2014 @ 10:09:30

      Praying he gets the answers he needs at his rheumatologist Amy. Once I got in with a good doctor, my quality of life improved so much. It is different now, but better than when I was really sick.

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  3. kendraroehl
    Jun 23, 2014 @ 14:38:44

    Crystal, I love your honesty. It’s true, while passion can be good, it’s okay not to be passionate about something and be content with your life as it is. Thanks for sharing!

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    • Crystal
      Jun 24, 2014 @ 10:20:30

      You’re welcome Kendra. I try to live in a bubble of contentment by finding happiness in whatever is around me. Thanks for stopping by again.

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  4. mescaleroteacher
    Jul 07, 2014 @ 15:12:56

    You are absolutely right, we simply must find a way to be content. If we are striving to hard to find joy in anything but Jesus, it isn’t going to happen. Which is why people have too much stuff, too much stress, and too much busy. Yes, just being content is essential.

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  5. Melody James
    Aug 28, 2014 @ 08:25:49

    Crystal, I just now came across this post (better late than never). Until 3 years ago, I didn’t have a passion either. I didn’t discover my passion (decorating cakes/cookies) until 2011. My soul passion was my family. It still is…I just have a hobby I thoroughly enjoy throwing “spare” time into (like I have so much spare time, haha!)…anyway…I completely agree with you. It’s ok NOT to have a passion. It’s ok to make your family your passion! I think if more people put their priorities into their marriage/families, maybe our world wouldn’t have such a high divorce rate/dysfunctional family rate! I applaud you and commend you for making your family your passion! 🙂

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